There! Don’t you feel better? Always makes me feel better to stare at that little mug for a minute!
I needed that this morning. I’m having kind of a rough few days, well weeks! Seems ever since I went back to work and had to start pumping a lot more my body has started rebelling. I think I just much rather prefer to nurse my baby than be hooked up to a pump like a cow.
So my supply has been dwindling it seems. I’ve tried EVERYTHING! I’ve gotten advice from numerous people including lactation consultants, I’ve nursed for hours on end in the evenings and weekends, I’ve increased my skin-to-skin time, I’ve tried herbal supplements and other things that might make my Baptist friends cringe but nothing has seemed to work long-term.
Cooper is up to eating 15 ounces while I’m at work and I’ve been only pumping 7-9 ounces during that time period. So it doesn’t take a finance degree to figure out that is not adding up. So yeah! For a few weeks I’ve been going home and continuing to nurse Cooper AND trying to pump the remainder of ounces he would need for the next day. I’ve been up all hours of the night pumping, pumping while Cooper’s eating, pumping after Cooper eats, pumping when Cooper obviously wanted more to eat, pumping, pumping, pumping… and it’s just not making my tail wag.
The real kicker is my poor lil baby is not getting as much as he wants in the evening because I’m having to worry about making sure he has enough for the next day at the sitter’s! AAGGHH So I refuse to half-starve my poor lil guy anymore.
I’m having to supplement formula to make up for what I’m lacking in the good stuff 
I just feel so defeated about it. I know I shouldn’t feel that way, but I think my real problem is I feel like this could be the beginning of the end. And I’m just not ready to be done yet. I know its purely selfish on my part, but I SOOO enjoy our little time together and that he prefers me over everyone just because I’m his food source. Yep… I’m selfish! But whatever. I’m just not ready to give that up yet.
So I’m going to continue doing everything that I’ve been doing in hopes that he’ll get as much of the good stuff as I can get him for as long as my body cooperates. And hopefully my supply won’t continue to taper off.
I’m willing to bet that me no longer stressing about how many ounces I have left to pump for the day will cause me to start producing more! haha Here’s to hoping! 
